~ayah

assalamualaikum...

it has been about 9 years..ayah passed away when i was 12..
old enough to feel the pain..ayah was always been in and out of
hospitals..and before he passed away, we were prepared enough..
..we accepted the fate readily..
because we knew it was destined that way...
strangely now when im writing again about it..
(i dunno why), i kind of feel some pain,, deep inside me...(-._.-)
lately,,i've been missing ayah a lot...
i am not sure why..
when i see my friends with their ayahs,, i envy them...
..
they got somebody who truly cares about them but i dun..
i dunno why i am being too emotional but i really cant help it...
...im so sorry...

i don even noe whether, if ayah is still here, i will appreciate him..
or in the other words, am i sincere enough when i said i miss him?...
..ayah was not really the simple type person..
it was just his nature...
if he is still here,,will i be patient enough to face him?

dear Allah,,forgive me for being like this...
i dun do this because i dun accept the fate..
i just wanna lighten up this burden..

dear Allah,,
forgive me and my parents' sins..
put ayah in the best place there..
..he is the best ayah in the world..
i love  him so much..

ayah,,I am sorry for not being a good daughter..
may Allah bless u always..may you rest in peace there..
hopefully,,we can meet in Jannah..amin..

saat hati rasa sepi.sunyi.kosong

assalamualaikum...

aku buntu saat  ingin menaip tintaku di sini...bingung juga terasa...

sesaat sebelum aku menaip tajuknya, idea seolah-olah ada. hati, perasaan terasa penuh dengan emosi yang memaksa jari-jariku bergerak menaip. 

namun usai sahaja tajuk, hati jadi sejuk. emosi jadi kosong. idea hilang. aku buntu!

mungkin kerana itu, pada mula wujud blog ini lagi, aku tuliskan tajuknya "tiada idea". haha

mungkin benar sih, yang penting isinya dahulu. 

saat aku fokus pada tajuknya, aku hilang arah isinya. 

sungguh manusia itu lemah!sesaat dia jadi mampu, namun tika saat kedua datang tiba-tiba dia tiada apa-apa.

dia tinggal kosong.

kerana dia tiada kuasa.

tidak mampu dia menahan idea dari akalnya sendiri supaya jangan pergi. tak mampu dia menyuruh hatinya untuk tidak khayal agar dia tak lupa. tidak mampu dia. 

tapi mengapa manusia tetap lupa?

 mengapa manusia tetap kabur dengan hakikat dirinya? 

mengapa manusia tetap ingin dipuji, dipuja oleh manusia juga sedang manusia tidak punya apa-apa?

jawapannya ada pada 'manusia' sendiri.

manusia = pelupa!

p.ip.s done~

Assalamualaikum…

Rindu rasanya nak menulis. Walaupun saya sedar blog saya ini hanya tatapan diri saya sendiri tp kadangkala ssaya ttp rasa rindu nak menulis. Sebabnya, mungkin sy ‘boring’.

Hehe..apa2 pn, sblm ini sy ada brjnji yg sy akan ceritakan pengalaman saya dan kawan2 ke Cameron highland kn?

Jd, begini ceritanya…

Kami bertolak lebih kurang jam 10.30 pg dr Cheras. Laluan yg dipilih, ialah bentong, melalui sg koyan n akhirnya tiba2 smpai ke bukit. Hehehe… ak pn xpsti sbnrnya..

Ape2 pn, kami smpai lebih kurg jam 2.00ptg. penat jgk la tp rsenya driver lg la pnat. So, kitorg check in n solat jamak zuhur n asar trus. Then, kitorg kluar utk mkn n jalan2 ckit.

Our first destination was Time Tunnel museum. It was a very unique place. Entrance fee was rm5,, (for me it’s quite costly) together with discount voucher for the café. But because the café was already closed, we didn’t get the chance to eat there.

There were many fascinating items there. Everything was just attractive. The owner was like keeping every single little things in his life. Actually, we were jz seeing ordinary things such as milo can, susu n so on but because the can was dated 40 or 30 years back, it became special. Do u noe wat I meant?

Maksud aku, byk barang ada kt dalam museum tu yang kita dh biasa tgk cthnya mcm tin milo, susu, n sbgnya. Tp yang menyebabkan dia jd istimewa adalah benda2 ni sume dtg dr 30/40 thn lps. So, kita jd trpikir,, wah,, org ni simpan almost everything!..

Haha…

After dat,kitorg cari sayur mayur ckit then blek…hurm…I noe I shud not promise myself that I wud write our journey there in my last post..tau x knape?

Sbb skrg sy rase mls plak nk menulis blek…!keh3…mgkin sy ni xditakdirkn utk mnjdi seorg penulis…xpela,,haha..hurmm..

~p.ip.s done!

assalamualaikum wbt...

alhamdulillah..praises to Allah the alMighty..

..thanks for giving me the opportunity to live in this world until today..

AllahuAkbar!!

subhanAllah..actually, i just came back from a short,,but meaningful holiday

in Cameron Highlands..

it was sooooo happening!...

..although there were so many 'mehnah n tribulasi' accompanying us (me n 6 others) before the

journey,, 

alhamdulillah at last we manage to be there and everything was just right..!

alhamdulillah.alhamdulillah.alhamdulillah.=)

actually..i was about to give up until i came across this quote in FB:

"When you are about to give up, think again why you held for so long"

SubhanAllah!

thanks to all my friends because things wont work if it is just me..

and things wont be happening if it is only me there..

our main goal was only one,,

TO LOOK AT THE WONDERS OF ALLAH'S CREATION AND SAY SUBHANALLAH!

alhamdulillah..we did!..hehe

anyways,, it's already asar..mybe i'l jot down the details of our journey on my next post..

..insyaAllah..

~p.ip.s done!

..life is too precious to be wasted with......?

assalamualaikum...
..life is too precious but we all are so busy....sadly,, i think we all so busy doing nothing!

dear all,,
life is too precious to be wasted with........

1. too much sleep
2. blaming others
3. feeling sorry for urself
4. facebooking like it is ur last day meeting with internet
5. thinking why u dun have girlfriend/boyfriend
6. hate others
7. too much football
8.  messaging day n night with ur boyfriend/girldfriend
9. window shoppings everyday, every week
10. etc..! i'll be wasting my time as well if i jot down everything!

..yes,, because there are so many things not worth doing in this world..
i dun wanna ask u to wake up or anything because u r completely aware if u r reading this stuff..
the thing is,, GET GOING!!
many people know what they want but they dun wanna act..and of course,, i'm part of that population as well..
and i'm writing this, completely for myself...
astaghfirullah...forgive me Ya Allah..

dear all,, go to the youtube , and try those keywords:
- syria
-myanmar
-palestine
-narathiwat

full of conflicts,, full of violences!..
they are fighting everyday just to keep on living,,
,,sadly, here we are fighting over footballs, over girls n so on..
=(
...so please, GET GOING!..let's do something for the sake of our religion..
insyaAllah,,, Allah will help us..
remember,, He'll never change our fate if we dun act first..

..with that,,,~p.ip.s done

so long!

assalamualaikum..
..perghh,,it has been months since i last posted something!..haha
actually,,the gap accounts for 1 semester..1 long,busy n full semester actually
n now im on break..dats why i chose to write here..
..haha...there are so many interesting things happened but too much too write make me feel
like *taktulispunxpekot*
haha..got something to do now actually..
insyaAllah i'l be writing soon..salam~

..m.us.ik !

assalamualaikum...

sy suka ar dgr muzik..dgr lagu..
melodi..tones..
..kalo kne gaya,,muzik mmg bole menenangkn jiwa..
tp kne pilih2 jgk...
bg sy,,sy suka
yg xterlalu keras bunyinya,,ada gabungan simfoni yg harmoni..
lirik yg bermakna..
mmg boleh mghasilkn satu lagu yg best..halwa telinga kata org..

  tp ada jg sesetengah org yg sukakan muzik yg rock..
hard rock pon ada...metal la,,n byk lg nme2 genre yg wujud,,
..mungkin mereka dpt ketenangan atau kpuasan dr situ..

biar laa...sbb setiap org  berbeza..
msing2 ada cara sndiri...
taste sndiri,,so, up to them la kn..
..yg PENTING,,,

kita dh ada panduan~ al Quran n Hadith..
kalo ikot yg ni,, insyaAllah pilihan kta xtrsasar..=)

..yg pnting,,ape yg kta buat niatnya adalah utk ke satu jln yg diredhaiNya..
so,,kita pilih la bekal yg menepati jln tersebut..^^,

opss,, ye..1 lg,,jgn lupa ajk famili,,kwn2,,org trdekat sume
utk join kta dlm perjalanan ni..bkn pe,,
snang ckit urusan kta..nk mtak tlg,,sme2 memperkuatkn,,n so on..
..lgpon,,the More,,the merrier, rite?..wAllahuA'lam

~p.ip.s done!

..mA.mA..

assalamualaikum...
pulang dr brcuti,,wajah mA.mA trsnyum..mnyambut ank prempuan bongsu nya..
..hurm,,walaupon style pemakaian agk pelik,,(style shawl bru! ^^,),,
mA.mA xkomen ape pon..hehe..mA.mA snyum je..
nk jg hati ank dia kot?..hehe
..tp mA.mA mmg cmtu..mA.mA slalu diam aje..mA.mA x byk ckp..
tp bila mA.mA bkak mulut,,mmg besh..haha..
ayatnya pendek,,tp mksudnya dlm..hak3..
...mA.mA sy mmg special!
(mA.mA awk pon,sy pasti!)

sy syg mA.mA sy..sgt2 syg mA.mA sy..
may Allah bless mA.mA always..^^,
~p.ip.s done!

..ya Allah tolong aku...

..astagfirullah..
kadang kala trasa sgt lemah diri saat berhadapan dengan
nafsu sndiri...
trasa sgt2 penat melawan nafsu itu...
..padahal syariat dh jelas...ilmu yg ada dh ckup nk pimpin diri memilih..
diri dh smemangnya tau sgt2 ape yg salah,,
ape yg benar..

tp STILL,,,trasa nk buat bnda yg salah itu..
ya Allah,,
aku memohon sbenar2nya padaMu,,,
bntulah diri aku yang lemah ini....
kuatkanlah iman di dadaku...
jauhkan aku dari maksiat dan kemaksiatan...
..tunjukkanlah padaku apa yg salah pdku,,
hingga sampai solatku x mmpu mencegah ku dari kemungkaran pd Mu..

astaghfirullah...
bantulah aku ya Allah...
ampunkn dosa dan kesalahanku..bersihkan hati dan jiwaku..
..tunjukkan aku jalan yg lurus,, jalan yg benar,,
jalan yang Kau redhai..
hanya redhaMu yg aku kejar...
ampunkanlah dosa aku ya Allah..pimpinlah aku ke jalan yg benar sntiasa..
astaghfirullah...=(

..free.dom..

Gathered here with my family

…My neighbours and my friends

Standing firm together against oppression holding handsA

It doesn’t matter where you’re from

Or if you’re young, old, women or man

We’re here for the same reason; we want to take back our land

Oh God thank you

For giving us the strength to hold on

And now we’re here together

Calling you for freedom, freedom

We know you can hear our call ooh

We’re calling for freedom, fighting for freedom

We know you won’t let us fall oh

We know you’re here with us

No more being prisoners in our homes

No more being afraid to talk

Our dream is just to be free, just to be free

Now when we’ve taking our first step

Towards a life of complete freedom

We can see our dream getting closer and closer, we’re almost there

Oh God thank you

For giving us the strength to hold on

And now we’re here together

Calling you for freedom, freedom

We know you can hear our call ooh

We’re calling for freedom, fighting for freedom

We know you won’t let us fall oh

We know you’re here with us

I can feel the pride in the air

And it makes me strong to see everyone

Standing together holding hands in unity

Shouting out load demanding their right for freedom

This is it and we’re not backing of

Oh God we know you hear our call

And we’re calling you for freedom, freedom

We know you can hear our call ooh

We’re calling for freedom, calling for freedom

We know you won’t let us fall oh

We know you’re here with us

freedom-Maher Zain

7 very meaningful letters for those mujahidin out there..

who fights in the course of Allah..

who fights for the sole purpose of strengthening the "Laailahaillallah"

..may Allah bestow upon us glory,,not only in this world, but insyaAllah,, the Akhirah as well

amin...=)

~p.ip.s done! 

..so long..^ ^,

assalamualaikum...
..yeah,, so long since i last wrote something here..hoho
there were so many things need to be settled,,, and alhamdulillah..now some
of it are settled already...
..life has been great,, many good things happen,, alhamdulillah again and again..
and i would like, also, to remind myself that life has always been great..
yeah,, rite,,it is like a prison to mukmin,, but Allah still put happiness to be enjoyed
by His servants..thanks Allah...=)
..among good things that happened to me was the enlightenment of a misunderstanding that happened
about 10 months back maybe..
actually,,in my side,, it is something embarrassing.. because, i actually wrongly-judged somebody,,
..the bad things is the fact that she is a very good girl...
far better than me,,but because of my temper, i wrongly judged her..
and i did not even investigate the whole things before i said something bad about her..

alhamdulillah, i did not tell many friends about this...because i did try to think positively,
and after 10months Allah showed me that she really is a good girl,
she wont imitate me..
she dont need to..
because she's far better than me..almost in all aspects of life...
..thats why she dont need to..
oh Allah, please forgive me..
forgive all my sins...forgive me for having bad thoughts towards her..
and forgive her sins as well..she is a very good girl..
..forgive our parents and put them in high positions, near You..
..amin..
ps...yeah,, so berlapik2..xbgtau pon ape sbnrnya brlaku..just tulis scara surface..
because i am ashamed of myself..though i know it is only me who reads my blog but still,,,
sy malu dengan perangai sy sndiri...

p.ip.s done~