assalamualaikum...
it has been about 9 years..ayah passed away when i was 12..
old enough to feel the pain..ayah was always been in and out of
hospitals..and before he passed away, we were prepared enough..
..we accepted the fate readily..
because we knew it was destined that way...
strangely now when im writing again about it..
(i dunno why), i kind of feel some pain,, deep inside me...(-._.-)
lately,,i've been missing ayah a lot...
i am not sure why..
when i see my friends with their ayahs,, i envy them...
..
they got somebody who truly cares about them but i dun..
i dunno why i am being too emotional but i really cant help it...
...im so sorry...
i don even noe whether, if ayah is still here, i will appreciate him..
or in the other words, am i sincere enough when i said i miss him?...
..ayah was not really the simple type person..
it was just his nature...
if he is still here,,will i be patient enough to face him?
dear Allah,,forgive me for being like this...
i dun do this because i dun accept the fate..
i just wanna lighten up this burden..
dear Allah,,
forgive me and my parents' sins..
put ayah in the best place there..
..he is the best ayah in the world..
i love him so much..
ayah,,I am sorry for not being a good daughter..
may Allah bless u always..may you rest in peace there..
hopefully,,we can meet in Jannah..amin..
